Well, life just sucks sometime, don't you think.
All the beautiful plans we make vanish like vapor in the air.
I thought somehow that I would never be alone in the house, sleeping half of the day and staying up most of the night. My world went all wonky on me in August, and I'm still wondering what in the world went wrong???? How do you go in the hospital for tests and come out worse, only to pass on a week later.
I don't mind admitting I've been crying off and on all day.
It's cathartic and cleansing, though.. It made me feel better, too.
The bad part is you never know when it's gonna hit you, what's the trigger that will send me running for the kleenex box. If I don't cut it out, I'm gonna have to start buying the tissues with the lotion in em'. Love will hit ya like that, sometimes I sob for an hour, and sometimes I just whimper a little, screaming WHY!!!
I wonder if you noticed the little cross in the picture above.
One of our grand-daughters made two of them for me.
De has one with him, and the other one is here with me....
They fit in the palm of your hand, and you fold your fingers around it.
I hold it sometimes late at night as I fall asleep,
I'm afraid I might drop it and break it, so I'm very cautious with it, of course.
Moving forward, because I know he would want me to....
He never liked to see me cry.
A New Year is on the edge of the horizon, and it's looming over us,
beckoning me to join it in a lovely slow waltz.
See where the spirit takes us from here.
Thanks for stopping by to visit me, but I'm gonna close for now...
I'm watching Richard Gere and JLo...in the sweet little movie...
"Shall We Dance"
All the beautiful plans we make vanish like vapor in the air.
I thought somehow that I would never be alone in the house, sleeping half of the day and staying up most of the night. My world went all wonky on me in August, and I'm still wondering what in the world went wrong???? How do you go in the hospital for tests and come out worse, only to pass on a week later.
I don't mind admitting I've been crying off and on all day.
It's cathartic and cleansing, though.. It made me feel better, too.
The bad part is you never know when it's gonna hit you, what's the trigger that will send me running for the kleenex box. If I don't cut it out, I'm gonna have to start buying the tissues with the lotion in em'. Love will hit ya like that, sometimes I sob for an hour, and sometimes I just whimper a little, screaming WHY!!!
I wonder if you noticed the little cross in the picture above.
One of our grand-daughters made two of them for me.
De has one with him, and the other one is here with me....
They fit in the palm of your hand, and you fold your fingers around it.
I hold it sometimes late at night as I fall asleep,
I'm afraid I might drop it and break it, so I'm very cautious with it, of course.
Moving forward, because I know he would want me to....
He never liked to see me cry.
A New Year is on the edge of the horizon, and it's looming over us,
beckoning me to join it in a lovely slow waltz.
See where the spirit takes us from here.
Thanks for stopping by to visit me, but I'm gonna close for now...
I'm watching Richard Gere and JLo...in the sweet little movie...
"Shall We Dance"
Oh, I am sorry...Life does just suck sometimes.
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't have the right words to send you some comfort, but I will be praying for you.
How hard it must have been for you today, to be without the one you have loved for so long...
May the one who has perfect love, comfort you & give you His Peace.... Hugs from Michigan... K.
Thank you Kathy, I grieve, but not as one who has no hope. We had a lot of wonderfilled years together, he will always be in my heart, and knowing he is in my future waiting for me fills me with joy.
DeleteI wish you peace and love and prosperity in the New Year...
Ms. Glenda, here hoping you have a agreat start to a new year and for it to continure on forever...glnn
ReplyDeleteCan't imagine having a spouse gone in the span of a week and so unexpectedly too. *sigh* Glenda, you are still in mourning and will be for probably at least a year. Even when my father passed away I would find myself, nearly a year later, stopped at a red light and crying. Grief comes in waves and when least expected. It's healthy to accept it and roll with the sadness when it overcomes you. This must be just the hardest time of the year for you and I am thinking of you. {{HUGS}}
ReplyDeleteGlenda- I thought this might be a very hard week/season for you- God bless you-I know your inner spirit and faith will get you through the upcoming year, too. xoDiana
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